Wednesday Poem: Queer ~ Frank Bidart



Lie to yourself about this and you will
forever lie about everything.

Everybody already knows everything

so you can
lie to them. That’s what they want.

But lie to yourself, what you will

lose is yourself. Then you
turn into them.


For each gay kid whose adolescence

was America in the forties or fifties
the primary, the crucial


forever is coming out—
or not. Or not. Or not. Or not. Or not.


Involuted velleities of self-erasure.


Quickly after my parents
died, I came out. Foundational narrative

designed to confer existence.

If I had managed to come out to my
mother, she would have blamed not

me, but herself.

The door through which you were shoved out
into the light

was self-loathing and terror.


Thank you, terror!

You learned early that adults’ genteel
fantasies about human life

were not, for you, life.  You think sex

is a knife
driven into you to teach you that.

Frank Bidart

Copyright © 2012 by Frank Bidart.

Review: Sunshine (Sunshine #1) ~ Nikki Rae

Sunshine18-year-old Sophie Jean is pretty good at acting normal. Sure, she’s not exactly happy, but happiness is nothing compared to being like everyone else. She can pretend she’s not allergic to the sun. She can hide what her ex-boyfriend did to her. She can cover up the scars she’s made for herself. Ignore anything. Forget anything. Then Myles enters her life, and he has more than a few secrets of his own. When accident after accident keeps happening to Sophie, she can’t help noticing that he’s everywhere. That he knows too much. That she’s remembering too much.

It’s one thing covering up her own dark past, but does she really need to worry about people finding out just how much Myles likes her? Or that despite how much she doesn’t want to repeat past mistakes, she kind of likes him back? Not to mention the fact that she now has to conceal that Myles drinks blood-that he says he’s about four hundred years old.

She almost forgot about that part.

But Sophie has no plans to ruin the normal life she has created for herself. She can deal with this little glitch, no problem. Even if word has gotten around to the wrong vampire about Sophie and Myles, even if she’s putting the few people she loves at risk. Suddenly, those who were monsters before are just people, and the monsters? They’re real. Now being a normal human being is the least of her problems. Now she has to stay alive.

3 Thumbs-UpThis was definitely not my usual choice of a read and review book as it contains the dreaded ‘romance’ that can sometimes overwhelm a book and make it all too cloying and sickly sweet.  Not the case with this debut novel from this Author, and I have to say I was pleasantly surprised.  I can honestly say I wasn’t looking forward to reading this book at all, but now that I have, I am really glad that I took that leap of faith and read on until the end.

The characters in this novel were what really made it worth my time, in my opinion. They were well-developed and fleshed out enough to make them easy to like, or dislike if they were of that persuasion.  The main protagonist had a depth and originality to her that is often lacking in books of this kind, and it was refreshing to see that the Author wrote her in a way where she was not full of teenage angst, but able to open up, grow and move on from the things which were originally holding her back.  This quality made her easily likeable, and probably someone most readers would want to know in reality.  Even the minor characters, to a point, were given enough depth to make them interesting and not just appear as ‘part of the scenery’

Unfortunately if you are looking for the next great thing in the paranormal/creature love interest genre, you won’t find it here.  This book is in a genre that in my opinion has been done to death making it hard for any new Author to find a different approach to writing it; the plot wasn’t anything new and groundbreaking, but there were so many good things going on in the book that this didn’t detract too much from the overall enjoyment.  However, what I do feel would have really pulled it up another notch, would have been the use of a really good proof reader and/or editor as some of the flaws that appeared should have been picked up by those working in this area of the book.

Overall, I would recommend this book to lovers of this genre, and I will probably be reading some more in the series as I am intrigued to see how the Authors style, and the plot/characters, develops as it progresses.